Patience is a virtue

I rarely splurge on something really costly these days due to inevitable reality of financial crisis. But who can't resist the " Buy One Get One" sign on the fiber glass windows of Topshop? In my case, I just CAN'T! especially if I have been coveting these pair of denim printed leggings and denim long sleeves. I have been going back to the shop for a thousand times already hoping these items would go on sale. The catch is that each item had its respective percentage of marked down price and you would only have to pay for the item with the more expensive cost. Without any hesitation, I bought them right away with a big smile on my face! ;D Indeed my wish was granted after 4 to 5 months.

It pays to be patient. .. you know. .. ;)

Undone

I have the habit of creating things and not finishing them. This painting actually only took three days about 7 months ago. After which I was too lazy to do some polishing and ended up getting it done yesterday afternoon. It still needs another round for polishing though. Anyway, since I've been on sick leave for almost more than a week, I spent my time doing what I like best. ..

I'm a sucker for dragonflies. .. ;)

Close to You

My partner turned the speakers on and gently placed my arms around him.
We slow danced for the very first time with this incredible song by one of our favourites, Norah Jones.. .♥

I have never imagined myself going on a diet. I mean that would be so ridiculous. I'm skinny and I'm seriously underweight. I would even discreetly mock on people who think they're gaining some pounds even though they almost resemble my physique. I was grateful back then thinking I get to eat whatever I want until the last 2 years.. .

It happened back in 2008. Everything was going well. .. until one time I experienced my very first urinary tract infection. I never considered it as a serious disease. All I needed was doses of antibiotics for a week or more. .. and perhaps increasing oral fluid intake. .. or so I thought. .. I consulted to a doctor in a local hospital and underwent a series of laboratory exams and my result was pretty bad. I religiously took the medication the doctor prescribed anyway. And after a week of taking it I went through another lab procedure again. This time the results were the same. .. I began to doubt.

I sought for medical assistance with another doctor in a prestigious hospital. This time it's a specialist. A nephrologist to be specific. She briefly assessed me and finally concluded a presumptive diagnosis. At first I was clueless about the disease. I never heard of it. I know I came from a medical school but I must have missed that part. hehe. Anyway, she responded to my puzzled look and gave me a comprehensive information about the medical condition. I thought I was unfortunate enough to own this disease. I was in denial at first but what can I do. .. *sigh* sucks to be me.. .

Moving on, my physician advised me on a few things; take my supplement religiously, have some good rest and lastly go on a DIET. fuck. It hit me so bad. It was the last thing I want to hear. I never considered dieting. It's not even in my vocabulary. huhuh... I have to stick on veggies, fruits, fish, seafoods. . . meat would be in moderation only plus low salt foods. But as the years advanced, my diet progressed as well. .. I am NO to high protein containing foods/drinks, lesser meat, lesser salty foods.. . God, I hate restrictions. .. for the sake of my health... *sigh*

For two years, I have been experiencing a lot of discomforts and worse, my urinary tract infection keeps on coming back. Seriously, I am sick of the feeling. On a positive note, I get to anticipate the pain that I'd be going through so It is not that hard for me now but still it sucks. Furthermore, I have been cheating on my diet frequently. Come on, I can't resist pizza, lechon, korean noodles, salted shrimps, stroganov, Tanduay Ice, etc.. . I know.. . I'm such a stubborn ass.. I am jeopardizing my own health... . crazy me. ..

Just recently, I endured another "kidney attack", it's what I call, and this time it's more tormenting. I had frequent episodes of difficulty in breathing, nausea, flank pain, fatigue, bloody urine and sleep problems. As usual, I went a trip to my doctor and she was even more concerned with my lab results now. The value of protein in my urine marked up from my usual 10 - 30 mg/dl to 300 mg/dl. I felt quite alarmed and I considered going through kidney biopsy to confirm my diagnosis and to obtain the prognosis of my condition as well. But not for now.. . I still have to save up for the cost. I do not want my parents be shouldering the expenses of my medical care. It's too much. I need to get back to work soon so I can save up for this procedure. I'm seriously prioritizing my health. Think of it, I'm too young to get ill.. .. .

But hey, I'm never giving up. Although I admit sometimes I get depressed with my situation. But I realized that there's so much to life than getting sick. This does not stop me from doing what I want. I still want to practice my profession even though it's the number one aggravating factor of my condition. I just need to be extra careful now that I know my limitations. I know things will turn out good soon. .. I hope and pray hard. . .

and the rest.. I leave it all up to God.. . .


P.S
if curious about my condition CLICK HERE for more information. .